2019 IN RETROSPECT

This is one of the messages I received on New Year’s Day, looking at it made me think about the freshness of the year and all the possibilities which came with it. I could not help but reflect on what 2019 had been for me.

I should have written this post in the first week of January but as is always the case I kept putting it off until today the 18th of February 2020. My 2018 resolve of aiming to write at least two posts a week went through the window. I am not sure what I can attribute it to except the “P” word PROCASTINATION which seem to have become my hobby horse.

As I decided to go ahead and write a belated post three questions kept lingering on mind these are:-

what pre-occupied my mind?

what did I achieve in 2019?

what was worthwhile?

These questions are the source of this post and perhaps mark a serious come back to regular posting on my blog.

2019 Pre- occupations

Those who did read some of the posts on my blog will be aware that Zimbabwean politics, the deterioration of my native land completely took over my mind throughout 2019. The reason is Zimbabwe is a beautiful country which has a lot going for it in that it has the best climatic conditions that enables it to produce enough to feed itself and export and keeping the wheels of the economy turning. (I must be quick to mention that the climate change has caused recurring droughts contributing to the food shortages.)

However the main causes of the hardships and suffering the people is as a result of bad governance hence my pre-occupation with the politics. I got so wrapped up with problems of my country that I did not even think of those in Venizuela who are also going through the same challenges as faced by Zimbabweans. It does seem that other countries have their own problems, it is clear that the world is a mess at the minute and need fixing as Dolly Patton says in her song ‘Hello God’

I have now resolved that I will continue to follow all that goes on in my nation without allowing the problems to take over my life as it did in 2019

2019 Achievements

In business achievement is measured by the profit made at the end of the financial year, in the kind of work I do achievement can not be measured but can only be hoped as it is about inward transformation in the light of this understand I can safely say I do not know if I achieved anything but can only hope that those I work among were helped.

On a personal level I am thankful that my own reflective life style was enhanced I was able to spend a lot of time reflecting on my own faith journey, the bible and music by christian artists and what it means to my own spiritual development

To top up my reflective life style was my pilgrimage to Rome in March 2019. it gave me an opportunity to further reflect as I followed Peter and Paul’s journeys in Rome it was an achievement that I was able to Take this Time Out.

What I found worthwhile

Amidst all my confusion , hangups and feelings of hopelessness through out 2019 there were things I found very worthwhile. These include the time I spent with close friends and family doing ordinary things like going to the movies and enjoying a home cooked meal. These are the moments no-one can put a price on they are just precious moments which no-one like myself should never take for granted,

The World Does need Fixing

Recently I came across Dolly Parton’s song ‘Hello God’ on You Tube, it got me thinking a lot. The more I listened to its powerful lyrics the more I realised how I had got absorbed with Zimbabwean problems that I lost sight of the whole wide world which Zimbabwe is only a part.

Yes Zimbabwe is currently bedeviled with political and economic woes, corruption of those in government, persistent droughts and lawlessness. It seems that many other countries are going through the same turmoils. Hong Kong has had protests which were just as bad with police shooting protesters just like what happened in Zimbabwe. Then there was Venezuela where people were on the streets for weeks on end demanding the resignation of their president. The United States of America is still trying to sort out their president, in the United Kingdom people are grappling with Brexit, the list goes on of nations in some sort of turmoil.

As I mentioned above the lyrics of Dolly’s song are thought provoking and I will use some of the lines which echo the sentiments about the world needing to be fixed. First up Dolly talks about how she is”questioning God’s existence leaving her feeling cold as a result of what is going on in the world. I have to admit that is how I have felt about all that was going on in my home land, finding myself questioning the whole idea of God’s existence. Deep down I believe God is okay about my questioning and doubting him yet I feel guilty for even contemplating the doubting.

She asks if it is possible for humans to “fix it”, as humans continue to kill each other sometimes in the name of defending God who does not need to be defended by humans. According to the lyrics we human beings are responsible for all the turmoil we are in as a result of our selfishness.

According to the song as humans we only need to stop being selfish and work hard to put others first. If only the politicians would stop thinking about amassing wealth for themselves and put the needs of the general populace first. This sentiment reminded me of one of Martin Luther King’s inspirational quote which says:

“We need leaders not in love with money but in love with justice. Not in love with publicity but in love with humanity”

I guess that can be one way of beginning to fix the mess we are in. The last line which provoked me is when Dolly asks God “if he loves some people more than others” Ofcourse God does not have favourites he loves the whole of his creation It is us human beings who paint the picture that there are some people who are loved by God more than others.

I was glad I did come across Dolly’s song as it lifted me from feeling low and decided that I need to do my part in a small way to fix the world which seem to have gone to pieces.

Absence

Hello everyone, 2019 has not been an easy year for me hence my irregular posting on here. To be specific it has been three months since my last post those who have continue to visit here even when there were very few posts will know the reasons for my absence.

The political and economical problem of my country of origin literary took over my whole being as my last few posts show. I was expressing my anger and frustrations on the various social media platforms as those were the only places I could express myself without any fear. I may have off loaded myself but that did not help change what is going on, instead things continue to get worse and the year is nearly coming to an end an still things are as bad as they will ever be.

This post is to share with the community of those who were following my blog but may have stop visiting because of lack of new posts. I have decided to put my act together and resume posting again on other subjects, and not concentrate only on the political situation in Zimbabwe as I have realized I am not able to change it.

I am planning to begin afresh as from the beginning of December I hope those who had been faithful followers of this blog will once again enjoy visiting. Thank you for your patience.

Being Zimbabwean

As I walk and mingle with people on the streets or in shopping malls, I see people who seem to be happy going about their own business of living without a care. However what I may never know is what is really going on in their lives because all they reflect is ‘all is going on well face’ they have a skill of hiding their frustrations.

Only those close to me who I pour all my frustrations on know that behind my ‘all is well impression’ I am struggling despite me going on with life as normal as I can. Within me I am very frustrated annoyed to be precise, that feeling you get when you feel upset as a result of being unable to change anything or achieve anything.

This is what being Zimbabwean is and has been for at least 38 years, I am sure those who follow my blog have read some of the frustrations I have shared in some of my posts in the past. I am frustrated because the beautiful country I was born and grow up in can hardly be recognized now.

You can see from this photograph that Harare was once a very functional growing city so were the rest of the cities including Gweru where I was born. I am frustrated because the once promising nation is slowly deteriorating things have got far far worse since my last post. Corruption has reached unprecedented levels that I wonder sometimes if it will ever be curbed.

In the past week alone it has been revelation after revelation of how the nation has been robbed of millions of dollars by people who are supposed to be governing. The result of these corrupt practices in key institutions f our nation has resulted in government failing to deliver the services which make life worthwhile for the population. People have gone days on end without electricity, pensioners find it hard to make ends meet because government can not pay the, hospitals have no medication or equipment to for health care. Government failed to be prepared for last season’s drought as a result many Zimbabweans are on the verge of starvation. All these factors are causing me to frustrated and helpless as I am unable to change the way our nation is being governed.

Being Zimbabwean pauses a serious threat to life I would not be surprised that many Zimbabweans are suffering from serious mental health issues simply because life has become a challenge people are not living they are just surviving. Thank God for social media because people who live in countries like my own where freedom of speech is a rare commodity can express our feelings on social media.

Confussed

It is almost three months since I last posted anything, partly because I experienced what I think is a technical fault which I have not been able to resolve. I tried to get word press on the third of January 2019 and got the following response and I quote:

” My apologies to you all for this problem I will figure out how to put it right”

I may have wrongly assumed this response was from the WordPress help team but since nothing has changed two months on I got it wrong. I also tried to share my problem on the forum but never got any response. It has been discouraging, the problem is every time I try to import photos from my facebook to use on some of my posts they no longer show except as a link. I do not know how to put it right. If any of you fellow bloggers who may read this I would appreciate any help I can get to get myself back on track.

I know mine is free domain plan perhaps if I upgrade it things will be normal again.

A problem

Happy New year to you all. Throughout the festive seasons I did not have an opportunity  to write new posts or even visit my blog.

I was surprised  when I was following  up some developments only to discover that some photographs  I imported  from my Facebook account do not  show except as a link.

  • My apologies to you all for this  problem I will figure out how to put it right.